So I've decided to embark on a for-real, documented, long-term weight loss journey.
No half-a** attempts to do better and complaints when it doesn't happen. I'm for real this time, 100%.
Which is not to say that I've never had success losing weight before, but I've never set out with a concrete plan in place, so it always ends up coming back. The closest I came was when I started going to the rec center at school my senior year, but by that time I was also starting into student teaching, playing in the band at basketball games, being treasurer/going to meetings/events/receptions/rush/you name it for SAI, and trying to have some semblance of a social life. Add to that the fact that most of my friends had no interest in spending time working out, and it was tough.
I've been overweight (at least to me) for most of my life. I remember the first time somebody made fun of me for it, too. I was in 5th grade and a boy (Will, if you're out there, you scarred me for life thank you) called me fat. I told him to shut up, and when the teacher came to discipline me and heard the story, he got in trouble instead. Luckily, I've been incredibly lucky that most of my life I've had great friends and family and never really considered myself bullied for it. Which is not to say there weren't comments here or there that, added to the fact that no boy ever seemed to like me, would bring my self-esteem down to the point where I believed that I wasn't good enough. If somebody says/does something to you enough times, you start to believe them and assume people think the worst of you.
I say all of this for a couple of reasons:
1) I tend to ramble waaaay too much, even when I'm typing something (sorry in advance!)
2) This blog isn't just to document my weight/what I'm eating/my exercise. I want to be the type of person who feels good regardless of what somebody else (or the scale) says, and I think this might help.
3) I doubt anybody but me (and maybe a select few people) will read this anyway. :)
A "starting weight" picture and info will come in the morning (I actually started this last week, but didn't decide to record my thoughts on it until tonight) so be on the lookout!
